"You never forget your first love, but have they forgotten you? Look up cute little Chuck or sexy Martha in the phone book and give them a bell. By now they're probably stuck in a loveless marriage with 2.3 kids and a mortgage. You may well feature in their broken dreams?"
Well, I don't actually have a high school sweetheart. For one reason or another, girls were never interested in me in high school. I did, however, have something going on in the summer right after I graduated (I wouldn't say sweetheart, but it had the potential to go somewhere). I had a friend that I was really interested in who happened to be in a very abusive relationship at the time. We would talk almost every day, and usually pretty late into the night. She would always complain about her boyfriend and how terrible he was to her. I was always there to comfort her and offer a place to go if she needed it. At first it seemed like she was also interested in me, at least that's the message I was receiving. As much as I tried to help her get out of that relationship (and preferably into one with me), she never really made any progress away from it. From my point of view, she was either completely oblivious to my intentions or thought that an abusive relationship would still be better than one with me. This made me really depressed for a while and generally not fun to be around. There came a point where I basically told her that if she couldn't help herself that I couldn't keep trying to. Naturally, she was upset and hurt. I didn't want to cause her any more stress than she was already dealing with, but it was something that I needed to do in order to keep myself somewhat sane. Since then, I haven't kept in contact with her very much. I think the last time that I talked with her was over a year ago, and very briefly at that. Last she had told me though, she wasn't with that same guy anymore, which I'm still happy for her for as a friend.
However that whole shitty situation may have been, after I got myself away from it I ended up in a relationship with the best person ever, which has just passed the 3 year mark now. I've never been happier.
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